It does~~

Finally  I get my Avril Lavigne Concert's Ticket^^ by chased the Skynet for over 1weeks, now I'm very excited and pending for the 18Feb'12 coming. Ya. my first time concert watching, I thought that won't be concert stadium . But someone hopes to watch it then I should make it with turning a different thinking. Sincerely, It does worth. Those to make you happy are what I'm going to do for you. Your smile is what that I'm seeking for from the day we start to understand each other until the moment now and the future. Erm, you have nothing to do, just give me a hug then's enough. Remember the day that you comfort me while I'm sad, just few days ago and you told me what you'll do for me. It's touch, I don't need a rich guy but I'm willing to admire for your effort and charms on your works. I believe you can do it, support you and stay beside you forever and ever. 

I would like to tell, I found it, what we need. We realized the things we need, own and disagree against each others. In between, we accept and change for the one we precious. One week to go, it's our 4th anniversary, It should be 10th and 20th and more and more tenth years awaiting. 

I'm stressed out

Hey guys. Thanks for reading my blog. I would like to say, I'm stress now. I keep feeling the pressure on me. My main job's tasks, my par-time job's tasks, my homework those are never ended. How could I handle it? Ya, I thought I could, just at the moment I accept them but it act adversely now. 

Do you know? On day, I'm pressured on those unfinished jobs. I received the wages then I realized that's my responsibilities. While being scolded, I just keep quite, nothing being innocence in the mind of my boss. I'm even clear that I can't rebelled against him as I'm the employee and he's the employer. I swear, I won't be his employee forever. He's not worth. Night, I'm engaged with all those accounts of my uncles as well as my homework. At this moment, neither is handled well. 

I felt I'm easy irritated recently, I wept just now because some small matter. I just recognized the reason, I'm  stressed out until can't control my temper. But now I'm feeling better, because I'm going to face the coming challenges.

I should be open minded and think it positively.  I shouldn't be stubborn anymore. I'm no longer a baby or a child, I should be strong. Just the moment with you, I'll become the weak person. Shall you know your hug is the great comfort for me. 

It's Worth

Ya, today be the last day of CNY 2012. I'm feeling liked everything on my hand being elder and need some new things coming to me.  I only realize that I need to rush for my achievement and it should be faster in stepping from now. I know that I'm tired, but I understood that It should be tired. Now is time and the session for us to fight everything we hope to have and anyone we hope to be, It's not allowed to have anything regretted in someday future. It should be in a low possibility. 

Do you know, I'm excited that I meet my old friend, a friend that I knew for more than 10 years but we out of contacted around 10 years as well. I'm happy that we are upgraded. We are not childish anymore but being mature, I'm happy to heard that she's going to marry, in case I'm surprised because this thinking haven occur in my mind right now. I wouldn't marry within this few years time as I know I'm not able to satisfy and support even for myself. It's a big breath in challenges and need a high brave to have and maintain a family. I know couldn't make it for at least 2-3 years from now. I do envy my friend who are having a family and able enough to support their own. How blissful is this? They stepped to the new stage of life, just look at the mirror, I am still stand on the same stage and pending for the next stage that couldn't be estimated when would it happen. Anywhere, at least I'm satisfied with all the things I own right now. I know what i'm doing and I know what I'm fighting for. 

I bought the Avril Lavigne Concert ticket, this is the things I wish to do since three years ago. I can make it by this years, how lucky I'm. All the things is worth as it could make my dear be happier. I like his smile, it shown how charm of him. HAHA^^

Love you Dear. Just fight for everything that could make happy and smile always^^

Life

Chinese New Year right now. But I'm not feeling good. I don't know the reason, maybe just a jealous feeling run around my head. I'm not used to feel be ignored. I'm not used to feel be scorned. Not a good feeling. I'm sad. It's really a bad thing!! Is it my big challenge as what those in Chinese said, fan tai shui!! I crush my family, I crush my luck in 2012, I crush everything in good but just meet the bad one. How helpless I'm feeling now=.=

Do you all know? I just feel liked, you are thinking I'm the rich one, I able to bear everything that you think that I should bear with. Ya, you are right, I should bear everything of yours as just return back what you gave me since I'm a baby until today. I will, I will make it. But shall I make it just a little late more? While the time I'm ready, while the time I could be. While the time I'm free from studying. I promised, I promised, I'm take care of yours. But please, think of my situation right now, I couldn't bear it all that I'd tried. 

My dear daddy and mommy, could you please tell me what you want actually. I'm your eldest daughter, I'm also the most suffered daughter behind you. You aren't treat me in a fair way, I forced to accept all the rules that you set but while my sister and brother break your rule and did the things against your rules I forced to accept that you just forgive liked the rules disappear and no longer exist. The feeling is bad bad bad bad, the worst!!!! Do you know it???

I'm also not sure, since when I feel that I'm the earning machine, I collected your hope, and you invested on me.  Somehow, you showoff what I own to your friends your siblings and so on. I can understand that you really happy that your daughter din't disappoint you. But I'm not clear about your reason, why you push me on, and let me be your hope but you just treat me oppositely from them. My sis and bro. If I could choose, I would like to be the one who are just normal and not burden in being a good talent in front of my sibling. 

Ya, I'm going to plan my own life. Someday, I would able to stay in my own life with my beloved one. May the new life make me a new hope and it's the mainstay for me to stay smart and go on and go on.