My Job

My working office is going to relocation.Yesterday somebody suggested to my boss that I need an assistant for my accounting works but then be rejected. He said, I should handle it well. They experience that one employee  can do all the things. Indeed, all the thing right now is far difference from what they seen or done before. If just the accounting job, if I just in-charge what the call-Accounting Executive's jobs, I could handle it well. I should have the enough time to complete all those thing. However, It's being oppositely. I work for the jobs of operation management and financial control rather than accounting. In case, I just paid with what a accounting executive have. I'm tired, and sometime being frustrated. I do a lot of things but still be blamed oftentimes. I meeting with the accountants, I prepare lot of documentation, I learned a lot of things and I earn a lot of experiences. It sounds great, but stress. How long do I need to work for this and when will the other trust on my capability? 

Just prove on time, I should handle it well. 

Feel

Finally, my gastric pain recover and I'm feeling better now. I swear this will not and never be happened again. I must take care of my gastric much more and love it as it's really suffered on me. I had lack of effort on work since my illness,  I ought to ashamed on it. 

Are we all liked this? Are we just think in one way and do it the other way? I should put all effort and really spend the time on it. But why I can handle it well? I have a lot of chance, and the money is actually waiting for me but I just lack of the motivation. I know it's time to start it up. By today night, I will burn the fire up. 

I always think, how-come the old generation people liked our parents or our senior are willing to spend their hurt and time on their job selflessness and only think to done it in priority. But how about "US"? We always worry that we do more but get less than the other. We never pay the heart in deep but  always awaiting for the fabulous outcome. It's a lot of shit in our mind. It's because of us to think the world being too perfect or we thought we are the expert? Quite funny, we are only the beginner to stay in this society. We haven't take note to  survive. We thought we already be the survival but unfortunately we are not.

Lot of doubt in my mind. Are we going to succeed in the future? Are we going to achieve it together? Are we having the right attitude right now? Are there anything need to be changed? 

I pay a lot of hope, on me and you as well. I don't think I could run my way alone. But luckily you still accompany me at the moment now and I hope we could step forward together and forever. Do you recognize the importance of communication between us? I can't understand you or you can't understood my understanding is because we are lacking in communication. We charge to the wrong channel, and find the wrong way in sometime, at the end we quarrel, we argue, and being upset. Eventually, it harmed our relationship. I always think that only the mature will more generous and less to quarrel. 

Could we be mature and more generous? It should make our relationship being better.